OKay I Feel So Bad I ATE ALL DAY LONG and i'm 89 pounds?

you are binging b/c you are over exercising, and depriving yourself from eating in the week...also this is now a habit for you seeing as you do it EVERY week....and you try to compensate for the "binge" (which is the food your body so badly needs) by over exercising and not eating enough, its a tough cycle, but you seem like you enjoy it, and have no urge to stop it. This is my last post to you, because obviously anything anyone says to you does not help you....you need help!! you need to gain weight....you know this though!!! do you really want to live the rest of your life like this???? why would you? you wont get married, have any kids, and will ruin your dancing abilities, and die an early death....sounds fun?? Why do you do this? you deserve to be happy! just cause recovery sucks does not mean its not worth it, cause it is! im already feeling so much better, and you can not even tell i have gained a single pound! but i have...im getting a "y" :) body, and have energy, and im not always thinking about food!!!! i can get control of my life now! PAIGE you deserve to have a life! stop throwing it away :( All those mental problems you have when you suddenly freak out, is b/c of anorexia! wouldn't it be great to get rid of that too?? no one is saying you have to gain "fat" no one is saying you have to be "fat"....gaining weight does not mean getting fat, it means being the best person, best weight, best energy, best everything! means being happy again!! you WILL NOT become fat if you ever choose to actually take the step to recover. How many anorexics have actually become fat? hello???? its anorexia, they will not allow themselves to become fat. duh! if you truly are unhappy at actually being healthy then you know you can always lose the weight. You dont have to go to extremes, you will not become fat, secretly you know this, just have some faith...trust others...come on, get your life back. What is so nice about being a skeleton? guys dont like it, and obviously you dont like yourself either, and remember what you see, is NOT what others see, trust them, its ok to trust others. its ok to be healthy, in fact its worth it! well that was my last post to you, please get the help you need, no weight is worth this, this just makes you unhappy, and worthless. good luck paige! i hope i helped :( eating disorders suck, but you can overcome them, and actually love yourself, many people have:)